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I'm no counselor, but Mr. Garton seems to exhibit classic symptoms of Bipolar II Disorder. Check out his myspace page, and you'll find a long, bizarre, and somewhat aggressive rant very similar to the one he posted on our forums. One of my family members has the same disorder, characterized by a general intelligence and propensity for productivity, but with a tendency to lapse into episodes of elevated grandiosity, pressured speech, and irascibility.
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yes i know a bit of bipolarism, know 2 people who have it, one through old drink habits (which he gave up) and bad accidents, and one that was born with it, it easy to tell, and now that i think about it, the guy does exhibit some signs, but i didn't really care for it because i usually to lazy to care
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Hmmmm. That "Ray" fellow seemed a bit of a drama llama. Oh well, go ahead and let him go about his business thinking he's better than everyone else. I'm sure his publishers wont mind that attitude... right? :| Give respect get respect. Show none get none. Oh well.

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The fact that he was raised a Seventh-Day Adventist doesn't surprise me at all...

EDIT: I can't find the rant.
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It seems he deleted his words. For a writer, that's very odd...
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RedEye wrote:It seems he deleted his words. For a writer, that's very odd...
maybe because deep down he knows he is wrong
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Grrr....Im annoyed at myself for avoiding a cute boy who was going to ask me out for another cute boy who is not as cool as I thought he was. :P

Stupid problem, I know. But frustrating none the less.
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GOD, I can't believe I missed Rush last night. If only I could've afforded a ticket... :(
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It's 5:45 a.m. in Vegas right now, and yet here I am posting at the Pack.

Did I wake up early? Hell no. I haven't slept a wink all night. Why, you ask?

Because my asshole brother and his other asshole roommate apparently forgot that 11:00 p.m. to 7:00 a.m. is when normal people like me (please, humor me) sleep and decided to use that time frame to watch all three Indiana Jones movies in one sitting.

This is the fifth night one or both of them has kept me up all night with the TV at near maximum volume since I arrived in Vegas one month ago, and the third night in a row one or both of them has done so.

And I'm not allowed to complain (to them) because I don't have a job yet and have been granted leniency with the rent until I do so. But mark my words, if they ever pull this crap on me when I am paying rent, I'm going to do to that TV what George W. Bush did to our economy.

Bye all. Enjoy your sanity where I cannot.
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Every week I like to go out and sing, and In doing so I've learned a few things. either your cute/hansome/sexy or your funny. guess which I am. :roll: there are so many people who go up and sing and Terri compliments them on how sexy their voice is or the song they just did. meanwhile no matter what I do I usually get " you did that well!" from her. it's like everyone gets they're respect and then there's me. "nobody does that song like Tyger." probably cause nobody ever HAS! I've gotten compliments from the other guys like how they envy that I just don't care about my image, but it all boils down to one thing. I don't really have an image I need to maintain. I'm just some amporpheous blob with a varied song selection. while everyone does the same 4 or 5 I like to go about and do different things.
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So let's summarize myself as an artist.

1.) As some of you are probably aware, I have a deep lust for making ideas, deep enough for me to see myself somewhat as a sensitive fashionista with a fierce bushido spirit.


2.) It's my intention that I make something that's either realistic, fictional, or both, because I'm attracted to the idea of realism and fiction getting along well with each other. I refuse to be bound by standards within this particular criteria that i see as illogical, overly-controlling and assinine. Don't bother trying to stop me making something bizarre. I WANT to make something bizarre. I WANT to make something different.

... I also have a big problem with forcing my ideas on other people.


3.) I try, repeat, TRY, as much as i can to reject the notion of permanently conforming to mainstream subject matters and preferences, such as furry porn, naruto and narutards, FPS games, or nudist werewolves/therianthropes wearing tribal cosmetic accessories with excess botox on their facial contours in a state of drunken/drug-induced rage trying to prove whatever anti-human point they'll eventually die from due to karma biting them in the a**, UNLESS I'm being asked to do a parody.

No, i do enjoy some of these things as a consumer, but not so much as an artist.


4.) I often feel that I'm lacking conceptual strength, in accordance to what other people i consider my superiors have made that I've personally seen. This is the biggest problem I've put the most priority to working on since day one, and the most difficult for me to rectify.


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Now, my problem at hand.

I've come to what seems to be a painful realization that I may never, ever, EVER, be able to find an equal i can discuss my own ideas with, or a superior who can teach me how to strengthen my conceptual strength.

To try and rectify the former, I tried looking for fashion design communities. Unfortunately one of the communities was so stereotypical that i gave up looking for others that suit even one or two of my required criterias.

The attempt to rectify the latter is quite possibly the most painful for me to go through. For a long period of time, I've stubbornly tried and tried and tried and tried and tried to ask for some kind of conceptual advice from peers on ConceptArt, because i had the impressions that the group has the word "Concept" in CA, and that the place is a regular gathering of paid and proven professionals who have done work on many many products. Unfortunately, not only has each attempt been fruitless, but some, if not most of the members that i've spoken with in CA's IRC chatroom, have pressured me (at least that's how i feel anyway) to improve my anatomy, which is something that i've been told for so many f*** times that i've just had enough of it. No matter what i say, they'll just go cynical and tell me to learn to improve my anatomy, and everytime they tell me that, i'd go into some form of frustrated rage, to which the exact same chatmate would ask me if I'm doing this for a hobby or if I want to get a drawing job, which left me even MORE frustrated, because I thought he's asking something that has absolutely nothing to do with what i seek. In fact, I've already told him that i'm doing this for a hobby, and i find my fun in making things with those 4 or more things I've already mentioned.

In the end, i always felt like i've been conned in one way or the other. It wasn't until an acquaintance of mine from another chatroom convinced me that the "Concept" in CA is more like what you do when you make storyboard pictures for whatever media a dev team is developing that i really considered not wanting to ask for any further feedback from these people, and only see their community for their only worth of the Daily Sketch Group activities and the Sketchbook subforums. It was quite enough for me to feel like I'm back where i started -- alone with only me and myself to circularly pass around my ideas for myself to brainstorm with, and stuck with the impression that there's not one other intellectual lifeform that can help me with coming up with something bizarre and likeable, and instead give me something that i've already dismissed.


Thinking about it now hurts like f***. I don't really like being stabbed in the back, and that's exactly how i felt.
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well kitetsu your ventage intreges me to look into your art work, I don't know if i can do much but it makes me want to look into it further
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Man, what a horrible night this is! The cute boy wasnt there. Im still waiting on that phone call. I'm so unbelievably broke and I somehow have to move in August! Im not used to this. I usually have lots of luck but this just sucks. :(
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It's official. The NBA finals are going to absolutely suck for me.

Does it surprise you to learn that I'm upset the Celtics, the team from my hometown, made it to the finals? Well, don't get me wrong, I think it's great that a team once so horrendous Boston's sports media barely acknowledged they even had a basketball team has managed to bounce back straight into the NBA finals, but I'm less interested in the sport and more worried about my roommates.

You see, one of them is my infamous A-hole brother, who, as you may have guessed, is from Boston.

My other roommate, also a tremendously huge A-hole, is from Los Angeles.

What do you think is going to happen? One of them is going to become an insanely obnoxious a-hole and the other is going to become an angry a-hole. My only real hope in that the series end in game #5. That way I can be done with all of this B.S. as soon as possible (if there's a four-game shutout, one of them will be rubbing it in to the other until the next NBA final).

I really hope I find work soon. I'm going to need an excuse to be out of the house for 8+ hours a day more than ever now. :cry:
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I'm going to f*** murder the next person who slobbers over women in various media (in my current case, video games) after they see the curves and suggestive poses.

Don't get the wrong idea, I have the hots for various females myself, a lot of them the same females. But i swear in the name of jihad i will blow my motherf****ng boomstick at anyone of you who hold open disdain on certain females because they're "not hot enough" (more like "not slutty enough"), especially when they have unassuming appearances. I will also blow my boomstick 10 times as hard at anyone of you who vocally expresses disgust at females with different body types just because you have the right to feel that way, as i've experienced when i made Makoto from SF3 have an extremely muscular body type in the Capcom official message boards -- something the members there didn't take well at all. Their fantardisms should be a lot more prominent if they're more approving of females like Crimson Viper.

The reason being that i see this kind of behavior as evidence that you people in question don't/won't want any kind of variety with characters whatsoever, and just want curves, nigh-exposed T&A and either the extreme of exotic clothing or the other extreme of next to no clothing at all.

I consider you the bane of this particular creative spectrum, and had i the power, i would've gone as far as clipping your toes off one by one until you finally submit. Unfortunately, i have you to thank for making what was once a common preference into a form of guilty pleasures relived in 2 hour dreams.


PS: By "you" i mean anyone in general.
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GAHHHH! I AM SO PISSED OFF!!!
Ok, here's the situation. I'm taking an online coarse over the summer through Bringham Young University called Personal Freedom: How to Gain Control of Your Life. So far, I've been doing pretty good, making A's and B's are most of the stuff. But, today I started lesson four and I didn't get any of it! Its not that the subject is hard too grasp I just can't understand what the guy has written because he's....like YODA! The way he explains stuff is completely backwards and I don't know what the hell he's talking about!

I'm thinking of printing out his entire lecture and cheating so I can pass! I don't want to have to resort to that but I don't want to fail this test either. I have to make an A in this class so my GPA won't fall.
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I don't know if I told anyone about this or not, but when I was in college, I had a Geology teacher that used to assign tests that were all but impossible. In theory, it should have been simple: He'd provide a bunch of rock samples and we'd have to identify them based on color, texture and luster. Luster, for those of you who don't know, is a material's reflective quality; materials with a luster shine, shimmer or whatnot in the light.

The thing is that all of his rock samples had a luster because the idiot had them all glazed.

So W.P., if you honestly feel like you're not getting it because the professor is an idiot, in this case, I would consider it borderline justified. Just whatever you do, don't make a habit out of it. If lesson 5 is just as easy as the others, then yes, it was justified, but if you continue to have a hard time from here on in, go back and review.
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I don't usually like to double-post, but. . .

I came out to Las Vegas in early April, and now it's June and I still haven't found a job. My brother was far from truthful about the full extent of my options here, but I'm not pinning all of my problems on him (this time), and I am still intent on staying out here in Henderson because, while there aren't that many job openings, there are at least a few more than I would have had back home.

What I'm getting sick of is him and my mother giving me advice that starts with "why don't you just. . ." or "all you have to do is. . ." They tell me to get a job like it's as easy as getting bread, eggs and milk at the supermarket; all the jobs in Vegas aren't just waiting there in a bin by the register for me to pick one out at my leisure. I get that it's something I have to do and I'm trying, but I wish they'd stop talking about it like I'm not. When my brother came out here for the first time, it took him three months to find a job. I've only been here for two; why are they in such a hurry for me to get one? :P
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What kind of job are you looking for?
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Anything right now. I just sent in an inquiry about a job as a sign spinner -- that's how desperate I am for something.

There's only one place that's hiring that I have not applied to already that is within five miles of here, and that's KFC, which I can't even walk by without the smell coming out of the place making me sick to my stomach, so what are the chances that A) I'd want to work a five-hour shift there, and B) that they would even want to hire me to begin with?

Go figure that, out of the dozens of applications I've filled out and lord only knows how many craigslist ads I've responded to, KFC is the one and only place my A-hole brother is pressuring me to pursue a job at. All the jobs that are conveniently located nearby, that I've had past experience I could apply to or at which I could have made hundreds of dollars a night, he didn't give half a crap about, and dare I say it, when I made my intentions known to him about applying for a stage job in a casino, he actually gave me walking directions in the opposite direction so that I almost missed it (and he used to take that exact same bus and frequent that exact same casino, so he should have known better too).

But for some reason, KFC, the only place in all of Vegas he knew in advance I would absolutely despise working at, that's the one and only place he was thrilled to learn was hiring. Am I right in thinking that his intention in flying me out here may have been so he could look down on me and make my life as miserable as possible?

Oh, and on a side note, despite my brother being the bigger of two A-holes thricefold, I'm rooting for the Celtics. That's because while both of them become loud, obnoxious, smug and superior when their team wins, I've realized that when their teams lose, my brother becomes threatening and abusive while the L.A. A-hole stews quietly, typically just locking himself in his room and listening to Slipknot for an hour or two. So if L.A. wins, I've got two major A-holes to put up with, but if Boston wins, I've only got one.
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Ter, because of the lousy economy people aren't going to Vegas. Ditch that desert stinkhole and go to L.A. or somewhere else to find a job.
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When the price of gas goes up, Exxon delays raising the price by a day or 2. What does that mean? It means people will flock to Exxon to fill up before it DOES goes up. The gas station across from Exxon already raised the price. What does it mean for us Exxon gas haulers? Overtime on top of overtime because we have to meet the demand.

Thing is, we couldn't keep up with the demand. About a dozen Exxon stores where I live has ran out of regular gas a few hours before we arrive. Once I'm there....I have to deal with a bunch of pissed off people cause they can't get any regular gas.

HEY...its not MY fault!! Those people are sucking up the gas faster than I can deliver!! I'm SICK of people blaming ME when the station runs out of gas!! Just get rid of that gas guzzling, pimped out SUV and get something thats more fuel efficient!

SHEESH!! :x
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MattSullivan wrote:Ter, because of the lousy economy people aren't going to Vegas. Ditch that desert stinkhole and go to L.A. or somewhere else to find a job.
*sigh* :roll: The spirit is willing, but the wallet is empty.
And sorry to hear that fig. Here, have one on me: :duckie
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Yes, this is how i should really vent. Problem is, it takes much longer to do.
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