Wow it's been awhile since I pointlessly talked.
So I was just thinking......loneliness?
It isn't being sad, it doesn't even have to be sad. I see it as more of a longing. A want and a need to share ones thoughts, feelings, day to day happenings with someone. It's wanting converstaion and not just companionship. It's wanting to talk and recieve a response. It's wanting to share a space, if only for a little while. It's wishing you knew what your cat was thinking so you could discuss it and maybe understand eachother for a moment.
It's wanting to hold on to that last hug for alittle longer, knowing it may be the last one for a while. It's wishing someone would sit and listen to you like you sit and listen to them.
It's remembering to be grateful for all that you do have because if loneliness is your only ailment then life is actually pretty good. It's not about compareing what you have against what someone else does or does not have. To trully be grateful you have to dismiss all that and that's when you can trully appriciate loneliness and put it in it's proper perspective.
It doesn't have to be the end of the world and even bring you to tears, it can be in it's own right a form of appriciation or better put , put into the form of appriciation.
For that warm and comfy shower on a cold day, that most delicious cup of coffee as the sun slowly sets, for an entire night you spent reading a cheap mystery novel....
If only I'd put my adventurous<(totally spelled wrong but I don't feel like looking it up )spirit to better use, perhaps all this would be in a book instead of reading it here
