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Okies so I've been living with my sister an her husband over a year. I help them get the house ready for the babies before they were born cause I like to help folks. I always put others before myself. So anyways the babies are born and I decide to get up every two hours to help feed the babies. I didn't feel right leaving it to my sister and since her husband needed to work I did so. As the girls get older I still am there.
Anyways just recently they decided to move so i offered to help cause they couldn't do it with the babies there crying all the time. I felt like I should or I'd get slammed good..So while moving this stuff i hurt my back an was sore for days. I missed out on halloween TOTALLY..I didn't get to scare no one, I didn't get to do anything. I feel like I have to help, like I have no choice. I can't seem to say no.Everytime I do i seemed to get slammed. I'm broke as hell and can't move if i wanted to. I do want to move..so far away from all this stress.
The one time I got to travel away without my mom I had to take my sister. This was at a-kon. She made me miserable an I didn't enjoy it as much as I should have. She complained about everything..*groans* My mom told me I couldn't go alone.>I am freaking 22 years old!! I'll be 23 next month. I actually get to go alone this year..Thank God..I have never really traveled anwhere an I should have. There are so many things I want to see.>Want to do with myself, but my family makes it hard and also the fact i'm broke..
I have such low self esteem..I feel like the world hates me and that I just really don't fit in anywhere. I did really feel that way till i found the Pack. None of my family is interested in anything I do. They never were really..I hate to show em any of my art anymore becuase it's just like it means nothing.
Now since the move Ihaven't had a computer. My bro hooked up one for him an his wife an I couldn't use it.>At all..I started losing it an started cutting cause I was freaking out. I couldn't chat with my freind, or post any art. Still even now I haven't a compy of my own over here. I FINALLY have access to my bro's but I'm limited at that an he gripes at me if I'm on too long.I am usually on all day long talking to people because I have no friends or family to do anything with. I am always at home either alone or with the babies that now have learned to scream. I find myslef crying or almost in tears from them screaming..I can't get away nor go away..No money, no car..No place of my own..
I am 22..I feel I should have more. Should be something or becoming something..I don't..I hurt and it kills me to be so far away form the one I love an care about. I keep trying to tell myslef I'll get better..Things will get better..They have yet to do so..I can't give up...I try to tell people but it's hard for them to understand.>They just couldn't if they haven't been through it themselves. I hate the doctors, I hate hospitals and I hate all the meds an what they did to me. All the drugs that were tested on me messed up my head an my body..I was never a big person till i was put on drugs..Then I become more depressed..I still am. I can't focus well enough to get the weight off and I want it off so bad...I'd hate to lose my life over something like that..
I want to find my place, my destiny in this world. I want respect because i give so much an more. I don't mind being a bleeding heart as long as its not from pain one has caused me..I want to be free an no longer on a leash that holds me from doing things I want to do. My deepest desires, my deepest pleasures..i want to be something that I told myself I wanted to be..
My family keeps telling me that I might have to get back on meds..I tell them to look an see what meds have done to me.What can they say but it might help if they find the right one..There is no right one. I swear i have been nothing but a guinna pig for new meds an drugs..I don't want that no more. I have enough to worry about and all I want id peace, not through death, but by through finding myself..Really finding it and just doing what I want without guilt...
but I always feel guilty and when i do.. I feel miserable an when i'm that way everyone gets all funky and has a chip on their shoulder. If I did something wrong and I want to be alone to think on it i can't cause I have to be put down even more by my family who seem to feel it neccesary to lay it on me more..I tend to wonder if i was put on the earth at the right time. I think I was meant for the future or maybe the past..Or maybe just another dimension..Yeah maybe there is more worlds out there yet to be discovered where there is peace all around..Like StarGate..heh yeah right..
Wow...think i should make a story outta this
Anyways just recently they decided to move so i offered to help cause they couldn't do it with the babies there crying all the time. I felt like I should or I'd get slammed good..So while moving this stuff i hurt my back an was sore for days. I missed out on halloween TOTALLY..I didn't get to scare no one, I didn't get to do anything. I feel like I have to help, like I have no choice. I can't seem to say no.Everytime I do i seemed to get slammed. I'm broke as hell and can't move if i wanted to. I do want to move..so far away from all this stress.
The one time I got to travel away without my mom I had to take my sister. This was at a-kon. She made me miserable an I didn't enjoy it as much as I should have. She complained about everything..*groans* My mom told me I couldn't go alone.>I am freaking 22 years old!! I'll be 23 next month. I actually get to go alone this year..Thank God..I have never really traveled anwhere an I should have. There are so many things I want to see.>Want to do with myself, but my family makes it hard and also the fact i'm broke..
I have such low self esteem..I feel like the world hates me and that I just really don't fit in anywhere. I did really feel that way till i found the Pack. None of my family is interested in anything I do. They never were really..I hate to show em any of my art anymore becuase it's just like it means nothing.
Now since the move Ihaven't had a computer. My bro hooked up one for him an his wife an I couldn't use it.>At all..I started losing it an started cutting cause I was freaking out. I couldn't chat with my freind, or post any art. Still even now I haven't a compy of my own over here. I FINALLY have access to my bro's but I'm limited at that an he gripes at me if I'm on too long.I am usually on all day long talking to people because I have no friends or family to do anything with. I am always at home either alone or with the babies that now have learned to scream. I find myslef crying or almost in tears from them screaming..I can't get away nor go away..No money, no car..No place of my own..
I am 22..I feel I should have more. Should be something or becoming something..I don't..I hurt and it kills me to be so far away form the one I love an care about. I keep trying to tell myslef I'll get better..Things will get better..They have yet to do so..I can't give up...I try to tell people but it's hard for them to understand.>They just couldn't if they haven't been through it themselves. I hate the doctors, I hate hospitals and I hate all the meds an what they did to me. All the drugs that were tested on me messed up my head an my body..I was never a big person till i was put on drugs..Then I become more depressed..I still am. I can't focus well enough to get the weight off and I want it off so bad...I'd hate to lose my life over something like that..
I want to find my place, my destiny in this world. I want respect because i give so much an more. I don't mind being a bleeding heart as long as its not from pain one has caused me..I want to be free an no longer on a leash that holds me from doing things I want to do. My deepest desires, my deepest pleasures..i want to be something that I told myself I wanted to be..
My family keeps telling me that I might have to get back on meds..I tell them to look an see what meds have done to me.What can they say but it might help if they find the right one..There is no right one. I swear i have been nothing but a guinna pig for new meds an drugs..I don't want that no more. I have enough to worry about and all I want id peace, not through death, but by through finding myself..Really finding it and just doing what I want without guilt...
but I always feel guilty and when i do.. I feel miserable an when i'm that way everyone gets all funky and has a chip on their shoulder. If I did something wrong and I want to be alone to think on it i can't cause I have to be put down even more by my family who seem to feel it neccesary to lay it on me more..I tend to wonder if i was put on the earth at the right time. I think I was meant for the future or maybe the past..Or maybe just another dimension..Yeah maybe there is more worlds out there yet to be discovered where there is peace all around..Like StarGate..heh yeah right..
Wow...think i should make a story outta this
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White Paw wrote:i just vented in my pants..kinda smells too....
heh...with today's technology....we can now see it in action!!!
http://www.break.com/index/fart_caught_ ... amera.html
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Who knew farts were so...gassy?Figarou wrote:White Paw wrote:i just vented in my pants..kinda smells too....
heh...with today's technology....we can now see it in action!!!
http://www.break.com/index/fart_caught_ ... amera.html
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dude that's nastyFigarou wrote:White Paw wrote:i just vented in my pants..kinda smells too....
heh...with today's technology....we can now see it in action!!!
http://www.break.com/index/fart_caught_ ... amera.html
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Figarou wrote:White Paw wrote:i just vented in my pants..kinda smells too....
heh...with today's technology....we can now see it in action!!!
http://www.break.com/index/fart_caught_ ... amera.html
LOL HAHAHAHA
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