Much of Scandanavia was spared in the Scattering.
Listen to him...RedEye wrote:Who knows, you might meet a cute girl...with odd ears and pointy teeth and strange feet...
Stuck out in the wilderness, you might actually find fun stuff to do; remember, right now you're a n00b to an entire country. Be patient (I know, it's hard to do) and let what's happening happen to you. Whether it's enjoyable or a pain is frequently a matter of individual interpretation. Keep your mind open to the pleasures of what's happening, not the bum-outs.
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crap!)
Ha...hahahaha...uh, no. Not by a long shot. Maybe with you specifically but in general no.(well this is a first... another mind seeking help...
Because not having one sucks? (I ought to know... *grumble*) Besides most things would be really kinda dead without a literal one.and i just don't see why a heart is needed...
Yep. Always has been always will be. Not much you can do except try and make the best of it.life is meaningless, pointless and filled with hatred and violence...
Because you got the short straw like the rest of us.why do have to live here?)
Wolf-man-24 wrote:i know what you mean werewolf keeper, i finally found a girl who loves me not in spite of my oddities, but because of them. i should be happy, and when im with her i am, but when im away and i get to thinking, i just dont think i deserve her. so im almost waiting for the shoe to fall, and if it does, it may destroy me.
That's... exactly how i feel most of the time... i am out of school... and havn't gone to college if that's where you are now...takyoji wrote:Sorry if I'm just budging in, but yea, I feel lifeless once again. Every day I just wake up without any form of motivation or interest in the day. I just sit down and work for most of the day. But throughout this whole summer I've become depressive probably every 2 weeks at most for a few days or longer. Some days I just can't do anything at all since I'm just completely unable to focus on the task at hand without my mind going blank (such as right now). I've also come to the realization that throughout pretty much most of my life I've just simply been trying to make it through the day with no motivation. And along side that, my grades usually go to crap since I can't ever really do any homework. HOWEVER, that's during school, which is something I don't have at this moment (on summer vacation).
Yet I do realize that I am starting school soon again in ~12 days from now and that I'll just have to bare with the schedule again of trying to make it through the school day, then trying to make it through the rest of the day as I work. Also throughout this summer none of my friends have called me at all, it's pretty much always been throughout my life that I'd have to call my friends in order to do something with them. But recently I've been starting to do things with one friend of mine, however I just feel plain and not deeply interested. Video games and the such have also become a bit dry to myself as well. Then I try to motivate myself by thinking of some thing I'd like to have as of something that I would have to work for, but at this point, there's really nothing I care about getting anymore.
Then I look into the future of what type of career path I'd like to take, and there's really nothing in specific that really comes to mind. Or I even look to the future in general realizing that it's many more years of life that I'll just have to bare with slowly second-by-second, day-by-day, year-by-year, et al. I look at the work I've done this summer and I've only done like 10% of what I've wanted to get done. The only time I ever feel good about myself is when I actually get a project accomplished, not much else really. Then I start thinking about what the hell there is in life, and I see those usual desires everyone has (marriage, children, getting a good job, etc) yet they just seem all so bleak.
And no, I'm not the suicidal type, I'm just careless of my life just trying to make it through each day. Yes, I do have a good home, education, health, and so on; yet, it hasn't exactly counteracted with my current stale views. I'm also usually just sick of myself (self-loathing) at times, and at the same time I don't really have any enemies. Even though I've been in this condition in and out for a few years (or probably even shorter than that), I ironically haven't gone insane. I also don't know whether to consider it depression when it isn't consistent. Some days I feel like complete crap, other days I'm just indifferent.
Can you guess the ironic aspect about that though? I was just on vacation a couple of days ago for a week. xP Otherwise probably every 14 days or so I go on a little bike ride and it doesn't make a major difference.RedEye wrote:If where you are is making a down of your life, then
Go somewhere different!
Get out of your house, cabin, apartment, etc. and go do something that you wouldn't normally do. Experience something new. Experience something that is fun, enjoyable or exciting.
Once you get the job you always wanted. There WILL be things you want to get. Like....your own house. A new car. Maybe a 60 inch HDTV LCD. (Who knows)takyoji wrote: Then I try to motivate myself by thinking of some thing I'd like to have as of something that I would have to work for, but at this point, there's really nothing I care about getting anymore.
takyoji wrote:Then I look into the future of what type of career path I'd like to take, and there's really nothing in specific that really comes to mind. Or I even look to the future in general realizing that it's many more years of life that I'll just have to bare with slowly second-by-second, day-by-day, year-by-year, et al. I look at the work I've done this summer and I've only done like 10% of what I've wanted to get done. The only time I ever feel good about myself is when I actually get a project accomplished, not much else really. Then I start thinking about what the hell there is in life, and I see those usual desires everyone has (marriage, children, getting a good job, etc) yet they just seem all so bleak.
I hate to contradict myself but... he's got a point... as i've said, i've wanted to be a writer, but now the one thing i've wanted, i can't do anymore. And it's annoying the heck out of me... and makes me question why i even tried to write in the first place...Figarou wrote:Once you get the job you always wanted. There WILL be things you want to get. Like....your own house. A new car. Maybe a 60 inch HDTV LCD. (Who knows)takyoji wrote: Then I try to motivate myself by thinking of some thing I'd like to have as of something that I would have to work for, but at this point, there's really nothing I care about getting anymore.
You're 16. You STILL have the rest of your life to think on what to do or get. Me, I'm 41. I HAVE my own house, pick-up truck, and a home theater I was dreaming of owning since I was 10 years old. My job is not the greatest, but it pays the bills.
takyoji wrote:Then I look into the future of what type of career path I'd like to take, and there's really nothing in specific that really comes to mind. Or I even look to the future in general realizing that it's many more years of life that I'll just have to bare with slowly second-by-second, day-by-day, year-by-year, et al. I look at the work I've done this summer and I've only done like 10% of what I've wanted to get done. The only time I ever feel good about myself is when I actually get a project accomplished, not much else really. Then I start thinking about what the hell there is in life, and I see those usual desires everyone has (marriage, children, getting a good job, etc) yet they just seem all so bleak.
Consider youself lucky cause when I was your age, the computers were like crap compared to today. The internet was JUST getting started. As for a job.....gee whiz....you have PLENTY of computer knowledge. You might land a job in hollywood making CGI films for us to enjoy. ME? I'm just a plain gasoline tanker driver thats stuck in that type of field. I don't have time to learn anything about computers since I have bills to pay. If I was 16 in 2008, going to school, and with computer knowledge, I would consider myself lucky and proud to know a lot about that field. You should know that computers get better and better each year. Programs get more and more sophisticated. Without people like you, we wouldn't enjoy enhanced graphics, programs, and ever evolving computers.
Soon a door will open and you'll have to make a choice. Step inside...or turn around and walk away. Only YOU can make that decision.
yeah, we talked. turns out she had some of the same worries. things have been getting alot better now, with the exception of it being a somewhat long distance relationship now that school's started, but we're working through it. thanks for all the help and understanding guys.Wolf-Man 24, don't mean to go too deeply in your personal life, but... have you told her about your worries yet?)
yeah i suffer from mild insomnia as well, instead of sleeping pills, take melatonin. it comes as pills you can pick up at you local health store. and its 100% natural and non-habit forming. it also helps with nightmares, i find. another thing to try is being really active. if you exhaust your body enough, it will have no choice but to fall asleep.*nagowteena* wrote:ugh.... I'm having so much trouble sleeping, that it's making me depressed. I've even tried sleeping pills...they don't work for me. I'm so sleepy, I can't stay on track or do anything right.
Word.Wolf-man-24 wrote:yeah i suffer from mild insomnia as well, instead of sleeping pills, take melatonin. it comes as pills you can pick up at you local health store. and its 100% natural and non-habit forming. it also helps with nightmares, i find. another thing to try is being really active. if you exhaust your body enough, it will have no choice but to fall asleep.*nagowteena* wrote:ugh.... I'm having so much trouble sleeping, that it's making me depressed. I've even tried sleeping pills...they don't work for me. I'm so sleepy, I can't stay on track or do anything right.
