Kami wrote:I haven't been on the Pack forums in a while. I've sunken into a deep depression. I'm not sure if any of you remember or might have read the post about almost all of my friends ignoring me on the "Venting" topic.
Well, I took Vagrant's advice and left them a note, asking why they were ignoring me. After all, I had known them for several years, and something like this was completely out of the ordinary. One friend replied something along the lines of:
"Amani is tired of you being mean to her and Austin. She doesn't want to be your friend anymore, and neither do I. You didn't even try to figure out what was wrong, and just acted as though we didn't exist when we did ignore you. Austin and Donovan are also tired of you, and they're going along with us. -Wyakin"
Amani. That traitor. She and I had been "friends" for several years, though we argued fairly often. She was part of the "wolf" pack I led, along with Wyakin, Austin, and Donovan, as well as Matsi, another friend too loyal to be dragged into this. I knew she didn't like me, but this was extreme. Sure, we argued, but I was never more mean to her than she was to me, and for her to lie to the others just to get revenge was uncalled for. She was dating Austin at the time, and Wyakin was and still is dating Donovan. After this bit of frustrating drama, Austin and Donovan continued to be friends with me, and Amani broke up with Austin soon after. However, because of Wyakin and Amani suddenly deciding to be traitors to the Rinji Alpha, I was forced to run them from the pack, and our numbers shrank again.
Austin, Donovan, and I all despise Amani now, and Matsi is torn between me and Amani. However, I can tell she's also leaning towards my side, especially considering the fact that I was at the hospital when Matsi was born, and I was the first person her age outside her family that she knew. She was my first friend, and I hers, and if she leaves me.. I don't know what I'll do.
I don't know what to do..
I don't..
(First of all: Don't hurt yourself... honestly it's not worth it because of this. Nothing is ever bad enough to warrant it.
From the sounds of it, Amani is back-stabbing witch, which pretty much means anyone who's on her side is going to be in for a rude awakening. I don't doubt for a second she'll do to them what she's done to you, and it will serve them right for taking her side in the first place.
second: You still have people beside you... don't ever forget that. There are people who stuck by you, probably because they know you won't betray them.
As for Matsi... well... sounds like she will stay your friend. But I'll say it again... don't hurt yourself if she doesn't. I can't lie and say there isn't that slim possibility... but i can say that, it sounds very much like she will stay your friend.
As for the depression... get treatment... talk to someone other than us who can help you more than we can... don't ever hesitate to talk to someone. It very well could mean the difference between life and death...
Hopefully things will work out... besides... Amani did this to herself, and from the sounds of it, she tried to drag others down with her... Her kind succeed yes... but usually she has more enemies, and very few friends...
Good Luck Kami...
-Lewis
PS Get treatment for the depression... it may or may not be normal. and even if it is... it can still cause you to think of things you normally wouldn't. As RedEye said when the human first started this thread, there are no Dr. Phils here... if you think it's bad, get help.)
No what you have are bullets in the hope that when your guns are empty I'm no longer standing. Because if I am, you'll all be before you've reloaded.
V, from V for Vendetta.
What a strange creature is man, that he cages himself so willingly?
-Athena from Appleseed (2004)
I have to try and enjoy life the way young people do while I'm still young enough to do it.
). On the day before he died, he just layed on our laps and would not move anymore. Occasionaly he would lift a paw towards us, but thats all he could do really. We put Cody on my brothers bed for the night. In the morning, when I went to check him, he was not breathing anymore and was stiff and cool...
